You might remember that I wasn’t particularly looking forward to my birthday this year. I spoke about it quite a lot in different posts, but the general gist was that the thought of turning 25 really scared the crap out of me, for no other reason than it felt like I hadn’t done or seen or achieved enough for the milestone I was hitting. Which is silly because everyone does things at their own pace, right?
To try and make the most out of the year, and take my mind off the anxiety I felt about making it to a quarter of a century, I decided to write a 25 before 25 list – things I wanted to do and see and aspire to before I hit the inevitable birthday.
And you know what? I didn’t do too badly. I may not have completed the entire list but it certainly gave me some direction, and even writing the list was quite cathartic and helped to put things into perspective. So, we’re going to do another. Not a 26 before 26, but just some things that I would like to do, see and achieve this year.
1. Read 10 books
In my 25 before 25 list, I aimed to read 5 books in the year as I’d really gotten out of the habit of reading for pleasure whilst at uni. This was one of the things I did achieve from the previous list and probably one of the most beneficial and fun too. I’d seriously forgotten how nice it is to take some time to yourself and get lost in another world. So, this year, I’m doubling the target and will be attempting to read 10 books before September. It’s not a lot for some, but for me, it’s a big improvement!
2. “Find myself” outside of Europe
I came a bit late to the travelling game really. I’d always liked going on holiday (obviously) but I was never desperate to get out and see the world when I was a bit younger and had more free time to do so. But recently, I’ve really felt the need to explore and see as much as I can whilst I have the chance. Not in a morbid way, but whilst I don’t have any serious responsibilities like children or a mortgage to pay.
I’ve never been outside of Europe, and I know there are so many wonderful places out there to see that are totally different to the UK in so many ways. So this year, I would like to go to somewhere like Thailand or Vietnam or Bali, somewhere culturally very different, and just spread my wings.
3. Build my self-confidence
There’s no simple way of doing this. But I would like to focus a lot more on me this year. Find what makes me truly happy, and get to know the person that I have grown into. I find that I doubt myself a lot, or I use humour to deflect how I’m really feeling, and to be honest I’m just quite insecure. This year I want that to change. I want to embrace me, all of me. And be happy about it.
4. Get a place with my boyfriend…
My boyfriend and I are currently long-distance but we are hoping to move in together sometime this year. We can’t afford to buy just yet so we will have to rent for a little while but just being together will be a huge step forward!
5. … And maybe a pet
I would LOVE to have a little house bunny again. We had house rabbits when I was younger and they were just so precious and my heart aches for a bunny. Obviously, if we’re renting it will depend on what our landlord allows, but fingers crossed!
6. Do more exercise
So generic yet so needed. I am the living definition of a couch potato. I do no exercise whatsoever and it is really really bad. I’m especially unmotivated at this time of year when it’s so miserable outside but even if I just go for one run or swim a week, it’ll be an improvement.
7. Give blood
Yep, this one I didn’t quite get round to last year. Fun fact: I’m weirdly scared of needles and I have no idea why. But they just freak me out a bit. In school, when we had the HPV jabs, I passed out. So the idea of giving blood, as wonderful and necessary and kind as it is, is quite stressful for me. But I am going to put my big girl pants on (and maybe take my mum to hold my hand) and this year I WILL donate blood.
8. As always, more theatre
I love the theatre and do occasionally write about it here, but it seems a lot of you aren’t fussed about it (according to the post stats anyway). There’s just something so magical about going to the theatre. The atmosphere, the music, I just love it all. There’s so many good shows on at the local theatres to me in 2020, so I’d love to go and see as many productions as I can.
Do you have any similar goals for the year ahead? What do you think about the things I’ve set for myself? Let me know in the comments!