Guess who’s back, back again… Oh hey there! It’s been a little while hasn’t it? I hope I haven’t missed too much and it feels great to be back from my break from blogging.
I felt like a little update post was necessary as it’s been such a long time (for me, anyway) since I last posted and who doesn’t love a little catch-up every now and again!
Why I took a break from blogging
Whilst my life isn’t crazy busy and I do have a relatively good amount of free time in the evenings compared to others, I was finding it increasingly difficult to motivate myself to sit down for 3+ hours every evening to write a post, or do blog admin or whatever tasks I had to be done. I’m not one of those people that can sit down at my laptop and suddenly 1000 words appear on the page – for me, writing takes a lot of time and care and to be honest, most days after work I didn’t have the mental energy to be being creative.
Essentially, I go to the point that I felt burnt out. I felt like I was rushing content and I just wasn’t happy with it. So much so that a lot of the posts I had written in the last few months were never even posted because I just couldn’t find my groove.
Another reason I took a break from blogging was pressure. This is something I see bloggers talking about time and again and normally, it doesn’t affect me but wow, this time it hit me like a train. I felt so pressurised to take my blog seriously and try to build it into something more than a hobby that I was getting so frustrated and upset that I seemingly wasn’t making any progress. Yes, I do want this little corner of the internet to be more than a hobby one day, but the way I was feeling about it was competitive and really negative.
The blogging guilt
I was feeling guilty if I didn’t have a post written in time for my usual posting slot and would apologise for this and for not being active on social media. I would get paranoid and frustrated if my stats were down, if a post didn’t do as well as I hoped or if I got declined for a collaboration. Basically, when I took a step back, I realised I had gone down a bit of a dark hole and was feeling a lot of negative emotions towards the blogging world.
Because of all this guilt I was feeling, I was lacking any form of inspiration. I have an ongoing list of ideas that I always update, but none of these ideas excited me anymore and I could always find something wrong with it or didn’t feel that I could do the topic justice.
Another weird guilt feeling I felt was related to Instagram. Now, if you know me, you’ll know I’m not a hugely creative visual person and I struggle a lot with Instagram. It feels like such a huge part of blogging now and frankly, I just don’t take very good photos. It’s as simple as that. I felt guilty for not posting, or inadequate when I did because I don’t really have a “theme” or take perfect flatlays. Personally, I don’t want blogging to become more about how pretty your grid is than how well you write or what great content you produce. I understand it’s an important platform for promotion, it’s a great way to get to know your followers and for some, it’s incredibly successful, but it’s just not for me.
So what’s changed?
I’m not really sure how to answer this really. Taking the time away has definitely given me a fresh perspective and allowed for new ideas to flourish, but I’m also in a bit of a better place mentally (and therefore creatively).
I’ve thought a lot about what my blog is to me, what I want it to be for you and how best I can squeeze it into my life at the moment. And at the forefront of that is remembering that this is my space. That means I have control – no more apologies for not posting “on time” or being offline for a few days. Yes, consistent posting might get me better traffic and might make my blog grow quicker, but I’d much prefer to be happy and present in my day to day life.
As I mentioned, lots of new ideas have been jotted down and I’ve got a good amount of content already scheduled which takes the pressure off a bit. The content of the blog itself won’t be changing that much – but I do want to get to know you guys more, and for you to know a bit more about me too!
I would love to be able to promise weekly posting and consistency, but it will really depend on what is going on outside of blogging and on my mental health too.
I hope you guys enjoyed this little catch-up and I’m glad to be back! The break from blogging was much needed but I’ve not half missed this little corner of the internet!