You may have noticed that I’ve not been posting as regularly over the past few months, and I’ve been taking frequent breaks away from social media. I’ve purposefully been trying to take a step back from the online world, and I feel it’s only fair if I explain why.
Firstly, I was starting to become obsessed by my stats. It’s super unhealthy and something I have never been a fan of, but I found myself checking my blog stats multiple times a day, agonising over why my views were dropping or I had less comments on certain posts. It was making me feel bad about myself; I would spend hours stressing over why nobody liked my blog and what I could do to try and increase my engagement. I was getting really upset about it all, and ultimately feeling like my writing and my blog was obviously crap because no-one was engaging with it.
Being less active has made me come back to reality and see why I blog. I blog because I enjoy writing, I enjoy being creative, and not because I want to get famous or break the internet by going viral.
Following on from this, the break from social media also made me realise that I was starting to really compare myself and my life to others, something which I’ve discussed more in detail here. I’m not a hugely confident person, so seeing “perfect” girls with “perfect” lives on Instagram all day can get to me quite easily. My anxiety also gets affected by social media, in that I will become a bit paranoid sometimes if people who I call close friends are not liking my photos or responding to tweets etc. It’s very petty, I know, but it’s something that can begin to bother me more than I would like it to if I spend too much time on social media.
I also took a step back because I realised just how much time I was spending on my phone or laptop. Now, I know this comes as part of the job, and to be a blogger you need to commit to being a little bit addicted to the internet, but I was finding that I was purposefully turning down social engagements to join in Twitter chats, or to catch up on reading posts. Whilst this is okay once or twice, I don’t want to isolate myself from friends and family, just to gain a few more views on something which is currently meant to just be a hobby. Maybe this is the wrong outlook, but I’d much rather be out there making memories than stuck behind a computer screen.
The final reason I took a mini break was because I was really struggling to think of fun and engaging blog post ideas. I’m a firm believer in not forcing content, and whilst I could have written many a book or beauty review, my heart wouldn’t have been in it. And that’s not fair on anybody who reads this. I want to be creating content that I love, and content that I am proud to share. And whilst this might not be the most exciting read of your life, at least you know where I am at, and why it might have taken me a little longer to like your latest Insta pic!
My break has allowed my brain to relax, and that means lots of great ideas and lots of planning behind the scenes, so I’ll be back on my A-game now. I’m really excited about the posts I have planned for the next few months, so I hope you enjoy reading them as much as I enjoy creating them!